Post by TheFirebrand on Mar 12, 2014 11:06:26 GMT -6
Some people cannot grasp how it is that any woman, could just simply abandon her husband and father to her child to just exist on the streets. Well that is exactly why I know she is not herself, that she has been poisoned and turned by the "vampires" so to speak and became everything she hates ...
It angers me as much as it pains me to exist like this. I can't even find a job to get myself off the streets. Which brings me to an earlier thought I had today ...
Its obvious I'm not big on conforming to many of the new ways of things. There are increasingly more and more men being trapped with short term work or no work at all while the women, or even the kids are picking up all the jobs. Those women don't abandon their husbands. Those women appreciate and love them for the commitment and dedication they share as a family man, a father and wonderful husband, and the occasional arguments or heated moments don't break them apart. No that's what other people are good for ...
My point is that I would rather be jobless at home with my daughter and cooking for my wife while she is at work than to be out here on the streets with no sleep and cleaning up in public restrooms ...
Some people think they know how hard life is. They don't. One person told me she worked her ass off to get where she is <<< that's all I had to see in order to exact my whole point. She worked, she had the luxury of keeping a job and making money to take care of things. I have spent 3 times as much of my life looking for work than I have actually working. Having a job and a paycheck, for me, is a vacation, is a luxury ...
So all you head shakers out there who think you have any clue what I'm going thru, you don't. You haven't been abandoned or forgotten by the most amazing, most important people in your life. You have no idea what it feels like to have EVERY single person turn their backs on you, many calling themselves Christians while living it up in their false sense of security. You certainly don't have a clue what its like to maintain yourself each day with no sleep, no shower, no transportation and only occasionally having a change of clothes. Not to mention being completely dependent on the weather in order to go anywhere or do anything. In my case is just moving from one spot to another ...
I have been profiled and judged by employers instead of hired and given a chance. I have been lied about continually and only recently have I figured out that I may as well stop telling people the truth about my situation. I don't do anything that will draw attention to myself. If anybody does me any favors I don't talk about it to others. I don't get involved in anything and I really don't talk to people. Keeping my composure when it all gets too overwhelming has been more difficult than ever.
Quite honestly I don't even know why I still talk to God anymore. I have no prayer left in me. I have no fight left in me. All I have is the occasional moment of shedding tears because I'm still in this situation and because my daughter doesn't know I exist anymore. Whats worse is my son is older now and I know he has been lied to. That he has been told I abandoned him.
The spirit is gone from within me. Its just me and a laptop ... blending in to a society of lost souls all around me.
It angers me as much as it pains me to exist like this. I can't even find a job to get myself off the streets. Which brings me to an earlier thought I had today ...
Its obvious I'm not big on conforming to many of the new ways of things. There are increasingly more and more men being trapped with short term work or no work at all while the women, or even the kids are picking up all the jobs. Those women don't abandon their husbands. Those women appreciate and love them for the commitment and dedication they share as a family man, a father and wonderful husband, and the occasional arguments or heated moments don't break them apart. No that's what other people are good for ...
My point is that I would rather be jobless at home with my daughter and cooking for my wife while she is at work than to be out here on the streets with no sleep and cleaning up in public restrooms ...
Some people think they know how hard life is. They don't. One person told me she worked her ass off to get where she is <<< that's all I had to see in order to exact my whole point. She worked, she had the luxury of keeping a job and making money to take care of things. I have spent 3 times as much of my life looking for work than I have actually working. Having a job and a paycheck, for me, is a vacation, is a luxury ...
So all you head shakers out there who think you have any clue what I'm going thru, you don't. You haven't been abandoned or forgotten by the most amazing, most important people in your life. You have no idea what it feels like to have EVERY single person turn their backs on you, many calling themselves Christians while living it up in their false sense of security. You certainly don't have a clue what its like to maintain yourself each day with no sleep, no shower, no transportation and only occasionally having a change of clothes. Not to mention being completely dependent on the weather in order to go anywhere or do anything. In my case is just moving from one spot to another ...
I have been profiled and judged by employers instead of hired and given a chance. I have been lied about continually and only recently have I figured out that I may as well stop telling people the truth about my situation. I don't do anything that will draw attention to myself. If anybody does me any favors I don't talk about it to others. I don't get involved in anything and I really don't talk to people. Keeping my composure when it all gets too overwhelming has been more difficult than ever.
Quite honestly I don't even know why I still talk to God anymore. I have no prayer left in me. I have no fight left in me. All I have is the occasional moment of shedding tears because I'm still in this situation and because my daughter doesn't know I exist anymore. Whats worse is my son is older now and I know he has been lied to. That he has been told I abandoned him.
The spirit is gone from within me. Its just me and a laptop ... blending in to a society of lost souls all around me.