Post by TheFirebrand on Jun 11, 2014 7:50:34 GMT -6
I knew something was wrong with my wife. Things were far from right with either of us. However, the things that came from her lips or in texts were shocking. She told me to kill myself right before she took the rings off her fingers. It was in that moment I knew the devil had taken her mind. I knew she was no longer torn between who she was and what she has become. The same bad spirit kept me behaving wrongly too ...
Later she had stated that I cannot use the law to force her to stay married. Well first of all I have no idea where that came from. I wasn't trying to use the law for anything. Its against Gods will to use man's law against a fellow saint, especially your spouse. She on the other hand was using it to force me against my will, against Gods will and against our daughter's best interest. That's just one example of how lost her mind is and how easy it was for everyone to convince her to do all the wrong things.
Speaking of man's law, and I have been over this on my topic pages, the police falsify records and reports all the time. So when I found out that certain reactions from people were on account of a background check that showed a false report that I never even knew existed, I was utterly shocked by it. I still am. I have realized that a lot of things about me are fabricated lies straight from the devil himself. Some of the things that I've been accused of over the years are nothing short of insane, but this goes to show you how far Satan will take things to destroy someone.
And that's where I start to have a problem directly with God. People say don't blame God, but God allows things to happen. God gives Satan the space to move in and cause overwhelming and phenomenal amounts of damage. All in the name of testing one's faith. Or proving Satan wrong. Well I never signed on to be that kind of pawn in a game of wills, but my anger and my pain come from the fact that my marriage, my wife and daughter, their souls are now at stake in this. As is my own. My own failure to stop this, my own failure at communicating with my wife, my own failure in maintaining our walk with God. Keeping us all on the right path.
Because of this even I have only one way of redemption. One way to find forgiveness. The restoration of our marriage, according to the Bible (the one that everybody likes to deny for their own convenience) is the only way we can find ourselves back on the right path ...
Now granted if she never turns around I may not be condemned for that. And granted my daughter may not follow in the same footsteps as her mother did ... but why risk it? I don't want to lose my wife on earth or in Heaven
My faith is depleted. All I have is knowledge and what I know to be righteous, holy and true. Some people say that holding to that is faith. I don't know anymore ...
Later she had stated that I cannot use the law to force her to stay married. Well first of all I have no idea where that came from. I wasn't trying to use the law for anything. Its against Gods will to use man's law against a fellow saint, especially your spouse. She on the other hand was using it to force me against my will, against Gods will and against our daughter's best interest. That's just one example of how lost her mind is and how easy it was for everyone to convince her to do all the wrong things.
Speaking of man's law, and I have been over this on my topic pages, the police falsify records and reports all the time. So when I found out that certain reactions from people were on account of a background check that showed a false report that I never even knew existed, I was utterly shocked by it. I still am. I have realized that a lot of things about me are fabricated lies straight from the devil himself. Some of the things that I've been accused of over the years are nothing short of insane, but this goes to show you how far Satan will take things to destroy someone.
And that's where I start to have a problem directly with God. People say don't blame God, but God allows things to happen. God gives Satan the space to move in and cause overwhelming and phenomenal amounts of damage. All in the name of testing one's faith. Or proving Satan wrong. Well I never signed on to be that kind of pawn in a game of wills, but my anger and my pain come from the fact that my marriage, my wife and daughter, their souls are now at stake in this. As is my own. My own failure to stop this, my own failure at communicating with my wife, my own failure in maintaining our walk with God. Keeping us all on the right path.
Because of this even I have only one way of redemption. One way to find forgiveness. The restoration of our marriage, according to the Bible (the one that everybody likes to deny for their own convenience) is the only way we can find ourselves back on the right path ...
Now granted if she never turns around I may not be condemned for that. And granted my daughter may not follow in the same footsteps as her mother did ... but why risk it? I don't want to lose my wife on earth or in Heaven
My faith is depleted. All I have is knowledge and what I know to be righteous, holy and true. Some people say that holding to that is faith. I don't know anymore ...