Post by TheFirebrand on May 23, 2014 16:07:46 GMT -6
She told me no matter what we went thru, no matter what troubles come between us, she would never abandon me. Which is the whole point of God's marital covenant. But in her weakness, instead of talking to me, her husband, she opens the door to let all the people in who convinced her to take the cowards way out. They justified her adulterous mindset. They poisoned her to turn against the very thing she asked for from God. Abandon the father of an innocent child, betray the man she gave her purity to, condemn him to a life cursed by her own hand, lead her own soul and our daughter down a path of lies ...
There is truth in matters of redemption and second chances. Sometimes the choices some one else makes must be reversed to repair the damage. Hearts must be convicted. Minds must be awakened. People must return to each before they can find favor and forgiveness from God.
Movies and tv dramas have conditioned us so terribly that we just accept everything that is wrong as the normal way of things and we have forgotten how to love, how to be loyal, how to endure hardships together as God intended. Worse yet is giving up while still in the newly wed phase.
I say all this but I know too that were it not for my obsession with truth and disinformation, nobody would have told her to give up on me and steal my daughter away. Nobody would have told her to be so ungodly selfish. Nobody would have told her to condemn me to this existence. I do not choose to stay like this. I've desperately tried to escape this. I'm stopped at every turn, every attempt.
No this is not about abandoning vows or betraying her own heart as well as mine. This is about persecution and destroying something, some one that couldn't be controlled or manipulated ...
My daughter doesn't deserve this. My wife's soul doesn't deserve to suffer for this. What I deserve at this point is irrelevant. I've suffered most of my life. Much of it as a result of my choices. Most of it because people are unable to live by their own philosophies of acceptance. I never fit into any of their worlds. No woman ever really fit in mine until Megan. God brought us together for all the right reasons. It is not His will or His doing that put us asunder. By His Biblical standard we are still married. Man's law is meaningless and without substance in this matter ...
However I have atoned for my history of mistakes more than ever as a result of these harsh circumstances. I do feel I deserve a break, a real chance at living right. With or without financial success doesn't matter to me if I have my wife and daughter. A man's value is not about his bank account. It's about his contribution and loyal commitment to his family. How he cherishes his wife, his dedication to being a father and how his time is spent doing that which God appoints him. I don't always get things right, but I never would and have not turned my back on any of those purposes.
All the reasons and excuses she tells herself for walking away, I had just as many, if not more. I simply gave more attention to my love for her and our daughter.
There was freedom in loving her. All other things I have no meaning to me without my place as a husband and father to sustain me ... I'm a slave to this existence. I need rescuing.
This letter is a little bouncy but I have so much in my head at once.
There is truth in matters of redemption and second chances. Sometimes the choices some one else makes must be reversed to repair the damage. Hearts must be convicted. Minds must be awakened. People must return to each before they can find favor and forgiveness from God.
Movies and tv dramas have conditioned us so terribly that we just accept everything that is wrong as the normal way of things and we have forgotten how to love, how to be loyal, how to endure hardships together as God intended. Worse yet is giving up while still in the newly wed phase.
I say all this but I know too that were it not for my obsession with truth and disinformation, nobody would have told her to give up on me and steal my daughter away. Nobody would have told her to be so ungodly selfish. Nobody would have told her to condemn me to this existence. I do not choose to stay like this. I've desperately tried to escape this. I'm stopped at every turn, every attempt.
No this is not about abandoning vows or betraying her own heart as well as mine. This is about persecution and destroying something, some one that couldn't be controlled or manipulated ...
My daughter doesn't deserve this. My wife's soul doesn't deserve to suffer for this. What I deserve at this point is irrelevant. I've suffered most of my life. Much of it as a result of my choices. Most of it because people are unable to live by their own philosophies of acceptance. I never fit into any of their worlds. No woman ever really fit in mine until Megan. God brought us together for all the right reasons. It is not His will or His doing that put us asunder. By His Biblical standard we are still married. Man's law is meaningless and without substance in this matter ...
However I have atoned for my history of mistakes more than ever as a result of these harsh circumstances. I do feel I deserve a break, a real chance at living right. With or without financial success doesn't matter to me if I have my wife and daughter. A man's value is not about his bank account. It's about his contribution and loyal commitment to his family. How he cherishes his wife, his dedication to being a father and how his time is spent doing that which God appoints him. I don't always get things right, but I never would and have not turned my back on any of those purposes.
All the reasons and excuses she tells herself for walking away, I had just as many, if not more. I simply gave more attention to my love for her and our daughter.
There was freedom in loving her. All other things I have no meaning to me without my place as a husband and father to sustain me ... I'm a slave to this existence. I need rescuing.
This letter is a little bouncy but I have so much in my head at once.
