Post by TheFirebrand on Oct 10, 2013 15:45:36 GMT -6
No one is taking into account the fact that I'm a very loving and dedicated husband and father. Was I perfect? Did I do everything right? No, but neither did Megan. You don't see me turning my back on her, taking our child from her and throwing her to the streets over it.
Almost all of this is a result of the doctrine I follow. And a couple occasions I regret overreacting towards relatives. I see all these stories about students and employees getting into trouble over their beliefs. Whether they get fired or bullied or told they can't have their Bible or whatever. Then I see so many people whine and complain about how terrible that is only to be the same people to turn around and do the same thing to a husband and father ...
Just forget about how I committed myself to taking wonderful care of my daughter when Megan found a job before me. Forget about how supportive and proud of her I was. Not to mention how she finally found that job because she knew someone there. Which is how it is for many, many, many people.
Lets just throw away how desperately I kept trying to find secure employment and how after we lost some money we had saved on a bad deal, I sold my rifle (which was a gift from my wife) and kept the money for her so we can try to move again later. I bet she hasn't told the truth about that incident. We may not have lost the money if she would have just spoken up, but she still put all the blame on me for trying to get us back out on our own again ... we both put money down, it wasn't just me!!!
Well the money I managed to save again ended up wasted because I was thrown to the streets and had no choice but to spend it. There is a picture of almost 500$ in my photos with the guns. So she threw away that money along with me.
Nevermind how I did so much like washed her uniforms and took very loving care of her at night or her days off and lets forget about how appreciative and loving she was in return before people and influences turned her against me.
No this is all because of how nobody likes my online preaching. Well nobody told you to read it. You people call yourselves Christians and you act as bad as the Pharisees! If we lived in different times I might have been stoned or strung up and whipped. Instead I'm being emotionally raped ...
Oh yeah I'm a human being. I guess that should count for something ...
None of you have a freaking clue how I'm feeling or what I'm going thru. Most of you would kill yourselves after one day in life like mine. You all think you know how hard life is and yet all you've ever dealt with drama that the lot of you bring upon yourselves. All I am to you is a target because it was so easy to jump on the bandwagon ...
You're nothing but a bunch jerks and hypocrites who used to support our relationship and marriage. Now you support a cold hearted, bitter liar and betrayer ... which I did not cause. She stopped talking to me. I didn't know certain things and was unaware because she didn't communicate with me directly. Telling everyone on a facebook wall is NOT communication with your spouse!
I'm not the one who changed. I didn't allow others to influence, manipulate or control me the way she did. Still, I don't blame her. She is innocent in ceratain areas because she is new to all this life in the real world. She had it nice and comfortable before and I was glad about that because it meant she wasn't all screwed up like most of the relations I've known.
I never wanted to stop throwing a ball and frisbee or playing Wii golf with her. I tried getting her doing those things again. I never wanted to stop praying or going to church with her. She lost interest in those things before losing interest in the marriage. And never talked to me about it. I hear just a couple weeks ago that she told Facebook she missed me going to church with her, must have been in like December I assume. I wish painfully that I would have seen it. That would have been a great game changer and things would be different now, but I didn't see it and she never told me. Not my fault! I still feel so guilty over it, and I want so badly to go back to church as a family with her and my daughter again.
You don't change partners under Gods covenant to correct your mistakes. You deal with them as a married couple should. No matter what I'm guilty of, what Megan has done is the greater crime. All I want is to forgive each other and start over with her.
I know that's what Gof is trying to get thru to her. She does everything to ignore anyone trying to tell her the right things to do because she knows how wrong all this is. She doesn't show our daughter the videos I send, and that should tell everyone right there where her mind is.
If everyone would just shutup, mind their own business, leave her alone and let her hear Gods voice and make her own decisions ... but I guess that's expecting too much from people that want life to be full of someone elses drama instead dealing with their own lives. I have yet to meet anyone who throws stones and doesn't live in glass houses ...
Whatever lesson I'm supposed to be learning from this or atonement I'm paying, I am not the only one involved and I am not the only person I'm worried about ...
Almost all of this is a result of the doctrine I follow. And a couple occasions I regret overreacting towards relatives. I see all these stories about students and employees getting into trouble over their beliefs. Whether they get fired or bullied or told they can't have their Bible or whatever. Then I see so many people whine and complain about how terrible that is only to be the same people to turn around and do the same thing to a husband and father ...
Just forget about how I committed myself to taking wonderful care of my daughter when Megan found a job before me. Forget about how supportive and proud of her I was. Not to mention how she finally found that job because she knew someone there. Which is how it is for many, many, many people.
Lets just throw away how desperately I kept trying to find secure employment and how after we lost some money we had saved on a bad deal, I sold my rifle (which was a gift from my wife) and kept the money for her so we can try to move again later. I bet she hasn't told the truth about that incident. We may not have lost the money if she would have just spoken up, but she still put all the blame on me for trying to get us back out on our own again ... we both put money down, it wasn't just me!!!
Well the money I managed to save again ended up wasted because I was thrown to the streets and had no choice but to spend it. There is a picture of almost 500$ in my photos with the guns. So she threw away that money along with me.
Nevermind how I did so much like washed her uniforms and took very loving care of her at night or her days off and lets forget about how appreciative and loving she was in return before people and influences turned her against me.
No this is all because of how nobody likes my online preaching. Well nobody told you to read it. You people call yourselves Christians and you act as bad as the Pharisees! If we lived in different times I might have been stoned or strung up and whipped. Instead I'm being emotionally raped ...
Oh yeah I'm a human being. I guess that should count for something ...
None of you have a freaking clue how I'm feeling or what I'm going thru. Most of you would kill yourselves after one day in life like mine. You all think you know how hard life is and yet all you've ever dealt with drama that the lot of you bring upon yourselves. All I am to you is a target because it was so easy to jump on the bandwagon ...
You're nothing but a bunch jerks and hypocrites who used to support our relationship and marriage. Now you support a cold hearted, bitter liar and betrayer ... which I did not cause. She stopped talking to me. I didn't know certain things and was unaware because she didn't communicate with me directly. Telling everyone on a facebook wall is NOT communication with your spouse!
I'm not the one who changed. I didn't allow others to influence, manipulate or control me the way she did. Still, I don't blame her. She is innocent in ceratain areas because she is new to all this life in the real world. She had it nice and comfortable before and I was glad about that because it meant she wasn't all screwed up like most of the relations I've known.
I never wanted to stop throwing a ball and frisbee or playing Wii golf with her. I tried getting her doing those things again. I never wanted to stop praying or going to church with her. She lost interest in those things before losing interest in the marriage. And never talked to me about it. I hear just a couple weeks ago that she told Facebook she missed me going to church with her, must have been in like December I assume. I wish painfully that I would have seen it. That would have been a great game changer and things would be different now, but I didn't see it and she never told me. Not my fault! I still feel so guilty over it, and I want so badly to go back to church as a family with her and my daughter again.
You don't change partners under Gods covenant to correct your mistakes. You deal with them as a married couple should. No matter what I'm guilty of, what Megan has done is the greater crime. All I want is to forgive each other and start over with her.
I know that's what Gof is trying to get thru to her. She does everything to ignore anyone trying to tell her the right things to do because she knows how wrong all this is. She doesn't show our daughter the videos I send, and that should tell everyone right there where her mind is.
If everyone would just shutup, mind their own business, leave her alone and let her hear Gods voice and make her own decisions ... but I guess that's expecting too much from people that want life to be full of someone elses drama instead dealing with their own lives. I have yet to meet anyone who throws stones and doesn't live in glass houses ...
Whatever lesson I'm supposed to be learning from this or atonement I'm paying, I am not the only one involved and I am not the only person I'm worried about ...