Post by TheFirebrand on Sept 20, 2013 17:46:10 GMT -6
I know my daughter must have been wondering where I was and why I wasnt there when this started. Now she has probably forgotten me. I don't know if she would even recognize me now. My hair is grown out, I look as terrible as I feel. I do not know what my wife has said to make it so difficult for me to get help from the law. What I do know is that whatever steps I take now will only be dragged out by the court because I have no way of getting immediate results. That much has been shown to me. The system is virtually useless without money to make it work properly. Its not designed to resolve issues. It only makes things worse and someone always gets hurt ...
Now Im suffering the embarrassment of losing an awesome job so quickly and could be living the shame of being trapped in a homeless shelter during the winter season for a second time in my life ...
The first time was just because I ran out of money and work while traveling. This time its basically because of the coldness of people's hearts. Its practically set the tone for my immediate future.
I just feel like my whole life is one big joke. Like I'm a laughing stock for the world's butt end. People dont understand, they don't want to believe how hard I try. Others don't want to realize their own roles in adding to my problems. Too many of my own choices, even the way Ive responsed to things have caused much damage.
I believed my marriage would finally break that cycle. Instead my wife and daughter were dragged into it. Now I've been cut out of the picture and tossed away like useless trash by the one person who ever truly believed in me. She became turned against me ...
All I've ever wanted was a family to love and provide for. To be able to help others and to work for God's Kingdom with my wife at my side. To endure life and raise our child together ...
After everything I've ever been thru and all the hellish things I've seen over the years, my heart still cries out for the same desires ...
Now Im suffering the embarrassment of losing an awesome job so quickly and could be living the shame of being trapped in a homeless shelter during the winter season for a second time in my life ...
The first time was just because I ran out of money and work while traveling. This time its basically because of the coldness of people's hearts. Its practically set the tone for my immediate future.
I just feel like my whole life is one big joke. Like I'm a laughing stock for the world's butt end. People dont understand, they don't want to believe how hard I try. Others don't want to realize their own roles in adding to my problems. Too many of my own choices, even the way Ive responsed to things have caused much damage.
I believed my marriage would finally break that cycle. Instead my wife and daughter were dragged into it. Now I've been cut out of the picture and tossed away like useless trash by the one person who ever truly believed in me. She became turned against me ...
All I've ever wanted was a family to love and provide for. To be able to help others and to work for God's Kingdom with my wife at my side. To endure life and raise our child together ...
After everything I've ever been thru and all the hellish things I've seen over the years, my heart still cries out for the same desires ...