Post by TheFirebrand on Feb 13, 2013 9:17:21 GMT -6
This note was not originally intended as a personal message, but it became one.
Its ironic how people tell me to come down off my my moral high horse sometimes and in the next moment they insult and accuse of me of things that any moral person would never be or do. Not to mention that a person who holds to the right moral would never see themselves on a "high horse" to begin with ...
I don't see myself as better than anyone just because I stick firm to my morals. I know some people act of jealousy and others are just butt hurt by truth. I've dealt with it all my life. Some people really are on a high horse and think they know everything and nothing anyone else says matters. Others are just plain dense and nothing intelligent or logical will ever register in their heads.
But I think most people are just scared to see things from a moral stand point. There are even people who call themselves Christians and yet they commit more evil in their daily lives than most secular people. I'll never understand that contradiction myself ...
I am nowhere near perfect. I have all kinds of mistakes in my wake. Some really bad ones too. The one thing that keeps me from being a hypocrite is the fact that I do not try to justify my actions or deny that I have done things wrong ... I simply admit them. I'm actually the type of person who get upset when I'm falsely accused, especially on a personal level.
I don't see myself as worthy of the task of preaching or providing information to people. Anyone from my non-Biblical topic pages who has looked on my forum has seen my Biblical topics ...
I'm not arrogant enough to claim I know where I'm going in the end or that I'm ready. I always question my status in the Book Of Life. I stay in communication with God, but I know its not nearly enough.
I also know that some of my topics attract all kinds of people and I have to play security sometimes. I don't like banning people. Even when its necessary. Anyone who bothers to read my messages can understand when I say I'm the kind of preacher who would need a shotgun behind the pulpit with me ... haha. I know there are a few on here who have previously followed my preaching.
I'm not really sure where this post is going. I just kind of rolled with it. I just want people to know that how I am on a computer screen does not dictate how I would be in person. Some days I rarely speak, other times I can talk up a storm. There are times when I do something completely stupid and I feel stupid for it. Basically I am my own worst critic and nothing anyone says to me can make me feel worse than I already do. Really it just irritates me. i'm a very cynical, blunt and sarcastic person who isn't typically afraid to speak up. Biting my tongue is the toughest skill I've ever had to learn and it still fails me ...
Sometimes I raise my voice when I don't mean to and people respond negatively ... and that makes what I had to say suddenly not matter to anyone.
I remember when I was younger most of my "I" statements were about how good I was at something. Some of those things I am still good at. Now most of my "I" statements reflect a certain shame or humility if you will. The last thing I like being told is how arrogant I am just because I stand on my morals with a stone firmness.
I've done this for so long now that many times I don't even bother exchanging words with people. And when its on the internet I can simply block them. I don't have to bite my tongue on here either.
In person tho I still get angry when people act stupid, and I do not always respond well. In most cases I just have to make myself walk away because anything I say will just fuel the flames. Especially if its the truth.
Standing up for myself has always been treated like some kind of crime against humanity. Most people I run into want things their way and for people to fall under their spell. When I don't do that it really ticks them off. Suddenly I'm public enemy number 1 ...
I miss some of my old buddies who just accepted me as I was, but it would be hard for me to hang out with them any more as I have grown and they are still the same. Making new friends in a position like mine is near impossible. As soon people see what I do and where I stand on issues its like i have the plague or something.
No one who I am aware of in my area (or anywhere I've lived) is ever on the same page or level as I am. Even my wife doesn't follow everything I do. Its heavy on the heart when your own spouse is still half asleep ...
The point is, truth as a whole is not a popular matter. If it were we'd have a properly run nation. I'd have a lot of friends and people who spoke lies and tickled ears would have a very small following.
I cannot find a suitable way to end this so this is my last line ...
Its ironic how people tell me to come down off my my moral high horse sometimes and in the next moment they insult and accuse of me of things that any moral person would never be or do. Not to mention that a person who holds to the right moral would never see themselves on a "high horse" to begin with ...
I don't see myself as better than anyone just because I stick firm to my morals. I know some people act of jealousy and others are just butt hurt by truth. I've dealt with it all my life. Some people really are on a high horse and think they know everything and nothing anyone else says matters. Others are just plain dense and nothing intelligent or logical will ever register in their heads.
But I think most people are just scared to see things from a moral stand point. There are even people who call themselves Christians and yet they commit more evil in their daily lives than most secular people. I'll never understand that contradiction myself ...
I am nowhere near perfect. I have all kinds of mistakes in my wake. Some really bad ones too. The one thing that keeps me from being a hypocrite is the fact that I do not try to justify my actions or deny that I have done things wrong ... I simply admit them. I'm actually the type of person who get upset when I'm falsely accused, especially on a personal level.
I don't see myself as worthy of the task of preaching or providing information to people. Anyone from my non-Biblical topic pages who has looked on my forum has seen my Biblical topics ...
I'm not arrogant enough to claim I know where I'm going in the end or that I'm ready. I always question my status in the Book Of Life. I stay in communication with God, but I know its not nearly enough.
I also know that some of my topics attract all kinds of people and I have to play security sometimes. I don't like banning people. Even when its necessary. Anyone who bothers to read my messages can understand when I say I'm the kind of preacher who would need a shotgun behind the pulpit with me ... haha. I know there are a few on here who have previously followed my preaching.
I'm not really sure where this post is going. I just kind of rolled with it. I just want people to know that how I am on a computer screen does not dictate how I would be in person. Some days I rarely speak, other times I can talk up a storm. There are times when I do something completely stupid and I feel stupid for it. Basically I am my own worst critic and nothing anyone says to me can make me feel worse than I already do. Really it just irritates me. i'm a very cynical, blunt and sarcastic person who isn't typically afraid to speak up. Biting my tongue is the toughest skill I've ever had to learn and it still fails me ...
Sometimes I raise my voice when I don't mean to and people respond negatively ... and that makes what I had to say suddenly not matter to anyone.
I remember when I was younger most of my "I" statements were about how good I was at something. Some of those things I am still good at. Now most of my "I" statements reflect a certain shame or humility if you will. The last thing I like being told is how arrogant I am just because I stand on my morals with a stone firmness.
I've done this for so long now that many times I don't even bother exchanging words with people. And when its on the internet I can simply block them. I don't have to bite my tongue on here either.
In person tho I still get angry when people act stupid, and I do not always respond well. In most cases I just have to make myself walk away because anything I say will just fuel the flames. Especially if its the truth.
Standing up for myself has always been treated like some kind of crime against humanity. Most people I run into want things their way and for people to fall under their spell. When I don't do that it really ticks them off. Suddenly I'm public enemy number 1 ...
I miss some of my old buddies who just accepted me as I was, but it would be hard for me to hang out with them any more as I have grown and they are still the same. Making new friends in a position like mine is near impossible. As soon people see what I do and where I stand on issues its like i have the plague or something.
No one who I am aware of in my area (or anywhere I've lived) is ever on the same page or level as I am. Even my wife doesn't follow everything I do. Its heavy on the heart when your own spouse is still half asleep ...
The point is, truth as a whole is not a popular matter. If it were we'd have a properly run nation. I'd have a lot of friends and people who spoke lies and tickled ears would have a very small following.
I cannot find a suitable way to end this so this is my last line ...