Post by TheFirebrand on Aug 16, 2012 0:42:35 GMT -6
I have almost 2000 people on my Facebook page's friend list but only maybe under a hundred who accept or at least open their minds to full truth. I've noticed that many "popular" preachers actually have hundreds or thousands of followers on Twitter. Me, I have 19 and I don't even know if all of them accept the whole gospel ...
I bet Id be more popular if all I preached was Acts 2:38 and said things like large church preachers do.
I don't wanna be known as an "awesome" man of God. I'm a disgrace. I have problems. I am guilty of many things and carry many old secrets ...
A man of God? Perhaps, but not an awesome man ... a prophet? Not hardly. Nothing so sophisticated as that. An Evangelist? Certainly. I do what the role calls for anyhow ...
I get accused of being all sorts of things. Everything from narcissistic to a wolf in sheep's clothing. And wouldn't you know it, the ones who name me such things are usually the ones controlling things and people around them or leaders of the pack and generally they are the things they accuse me of being. The Bible said it would happen ... how many popular preachers do you know who get bullied and ridiculed "more" than they are respected?
I've rarely been called a troublemaker but that is the reason for my Facebook handle "Firebrand." I'm also not the one who is controversial. Its everyone else who is controversial against God ...
The reason I'm neither a hypocrite is because I do not hide or justify things. I admit my to enjoyments and problems, and I don't try to shroud my humanity from others ...
None of these things make me better than anyone. In fact quite the opposite. It makes me pretty much the same. The only thing that stands me out in a crowd and separates me is my unwavering desire to tell FULL truth. About God, His word and even about people. Many people dislike me simply because they know I can see right thru them. Other's because they can't control me or manipulate me. Mostly people despise me for my audacity and canter. Especially about morals and the Bible ...
When I leave God and the Bible out of things I tend to get positive attention. Once I bring those factors into a situation everything changes. Suddenly I'm not the same cool guy I was a minute before ...
The hardest part is doing this alone (as the Bible also predicts) without much personal support and with most everyone against me or against the ministry. It doesn't change where I stand. Conforming has rarely been my forte. But life has always been extremely difficult for me. Ive landed on hard times more often than I can count. Even becoming homeless for a time ... that was the worst experience ever ...
I would like to have a humble following and some close friends on the same page. I would like to have a stable life and a basically nice home. I cry out for the promises of what my heart desires often.
I am 35 years old. I have 2 sons who I don't know because the families both sent me away. I now have a new daughter that I would very much like not to have to raise on welfare. Especially in these times. My own family has turned me out and even a handful of churches have turned their backs on me when I was homeless or in some kind of need or just speaking biblical reproach ... (Apostolic churches I might add) ...
My wife is wonderful and even more so with our baby, but we are not always on the same page about God either. I only hope that will change by God's hands. I've left it in His care ...
My biggest concern is getting back on our own and with taking this ministry beyond the internet, into a physical place where fellowship can prevail. Something local and steady ...
I use to assume I would evangelize from church to church, but I wonder now whether any would welcome being reproached anymore ...
If I am ever established, financially comfortable and respected it will be by God's hands, not man's acceptance ...
I bet Id be more popular if all I preached was Acts 2:38 and said things like large church preachers do.
I don't wanna be known as an "awesome" man of God. I'm a disgrace. I have problems. I am guilty of many things and carry many old secrets ...
A man of God? Perhaps, but not an awesome man ... a prophet? Not hardly. Nothing so sophisticated as that. An Evangelist? Certainly. I do what the role calls for anyhow ...
I get accused of being all sorts of things. Everything from narcissistic to a wolf in sheep's clothing. And wouldn't you know it, the ones who name me such things are usually the ones controlling things and people around them or leaders of the pack and generally they are the things they accuse me of being. The Bible said it would happen ... how many popular preachers do you know who get bullied and ridiculed "more" than they are respected?
I've rarely been called a troublemaker but that is the reason for my Facebook handle "Firebrand." I'm also not the one who is controversial. Its everyone else who is controversial against God ...
The reason I'm neither a hypocrite is because I do not hide or justify things. I admit my to enjoyments and problems, and I don't try to shroud my humanity from others ...
None of these things make me better than anyone. In fact quite the opposite. It makes me pretty much the same. The only thing that stands me out in a crowd and separates me is my unwavering desire to tell FULL truth. About God, His word and even about people. Many people dislike me simply because they know I can see right thru them. Other's because they can't control me or manipulate me. Mostly people despise me for my audacity and canter. Especially about morals and the Bible ...
When I leave God and the Bible out of things I tend to get positive attention. Once I bring those factors into a situation everything changes. Suddenly I'm not the same cool guy I was a minute before ...
The hardest part is doing this alone (as the Bible also predicts) without much personal support and with most everyone against me or against the ministry. It doesn't change where I stand. Conforming has rarely been my forte. But life has always been extremely difficult for me. Ive landed on hard times more often than I can count. Even becoming homeless for a time ... that was the worst experience ever ...
I would like to have a humble following and some close friends on the same page. I would like to have a stable life and a basically nice home. I cry out for the promises of what my heart desires often.
I am 35 years old. I have 2 sons who I don't know because the families both sent me away. I now have a new daughter that I would very much like not to have to raise on welfare. Especially in these times. My own family has turned me out and even a handful of churches have turned their backs on me when I was homeless or in some kind of need or just speaking biblical reproach ... (Apostolic churches I might add) ...
My wife is wonderful and even more so with our baby, but we are not always on the same page about God either. I only hope that will change by God's hands. I've left it in His care ...
My biggest concern is getting back on our own and with taking this ministry beyond the internet, into a physical place where fellowship can prevail. Something local and steady ...
I use to assume I would evangelize from church to church, but I wonder now whether any would welcome being reproached anymore ...
If I am ever established, financially comfortable and respected it will be by God's hands, not man's acceptance ...
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