Post by TheFirebrand on Mar 23, 2014 16:36:43 GMT -6
The reason I know my wife is living a lie now is because all that she has done and become is everything she hated and never would have if she weren't so easily influenced by so many worldly automatons telling her everything she is doing is ok and there is nothing wrong with depriving our daughter of a proper godly, married, natural parent upbringing. All the things she was ever disgusted by and told me she would never do or approve of anyone else doing have infected her spirit and blinded her mind ...
I know what it is to become something or everything you hate and not even realize it until immeasurable damage has been done. I know the signs and I know the causes (usually other people). I know full well how easy it can be to turn someone with little experience in such spiritual matters. I have seen it happen to many young people in my 25 years as an Apostolic, and it occurs much more so in the lives of young women. Many of the girls from my home church are now living it up in the world (at least the last I heard) but I have seen some of their profiles and its no secret how far gone they have strayed ...
Of course nowadays the influences are more obvious in the churches and the congregations completely oblivious to it. What gets me tho is that I know there are people against her choices and actions who she has ignored, but none of them talk to me either. I also know that some people who supported and encouraged her have seen the truth, but they also don't talk to me. A lot of people who see me out in public either look away in shame or because they are blind enough to agree with what she has done to me and see me as the bad guy.
I don't look homeless or advertise it either so I'm sure some of them just assume I'm fine. They don't even bother asking. Honestly I don't wanna talk about it or hear about her anyway.
There have been other husbands that wanted to help me with things, but have allowed their wives to control them. Wive's who in their misguided anger and feminist thinking believe Megan is in the right.
So many people think its so simple and easy to deal with this situation, but they don't understand that when nothing works, when none of my efforts pay off, there is nothing I can do anymore except sit and be miserable all day.
And that's where I'm at. Constantly, minute after minute, haunted and tormented by this desperation to be home with my girls again ... for God to redirect her path somehow. Even if its just for our daughter's sake ... I'll take it. We have to start somewhere.
I know what it is to become something or everything you hate and not even realize it until immeasurable damage has been done. I know the signs and I know the causes (usually other people). I know full well how easy it can be to turn someone with little experience in such spiritual matters. I have seen it happen to many young people in my 25 years as an Apostolic, and it occurs much more so in the lives of young women. Many of the girls from my home church are now living it up in the world (at least the last I heard) but I have seen some of their profiles and its no secret how far gone they have strayed ...
Of course nowadays the influences are more obvious in the churches and the congregations completely oblivious to it. What gets me tho is that I know there are people against her choices and actions who she has ignored, but none of them talk to me either. I also know that some people who supported and encouraged her have seen the truth, but they also don't talk to me. A lot of people who see me out in public either look away in shame or because they are blind enough to agree with what she has done to me and see me as the bad guy.
I don't look homeless or advertise it either so I'm sure some of them just assume I'm fine. They don't even bother asking. Honestly I don't wanna talk about it or hear about her anyway.
There have been other husbands that wanted to help me with things, but have allowed their wives to control them. Wive's who in their misguided anger and feminist thinking believe Megan is in the right.
So many people think its so simple and easy to deal with this situation, but they don't understand that when nothing works, when none of my efforts pay off, there is nothing I can do anymore except sit and be miserable all day.
And that's where I'm at. Constantly, minute after minute, haunted and tormented by this desperation to be home with my girls again ... for God to redirect her path somehow. Even if its just for our daughter's sake ... I'll take it. We have to start somewhere.