Post by TheFirebrand on Jul 15, 2012 1:33:45 GMT -6
In the movie Star Wars there was a scene where Luke Skywalker asks Yoda "Is the dark side stronger?" Yoda says "No!" ...
The devil isn't stronger, people are just weaker against his seductive wiles. But what of those who are simply stubborn and refuse to deny God in order to finally succeed? What of those who no longer feel they posses any strength to keep to the truth, yet somehow they do.
I have seen people who turn their backs on God. Even if they find success they still live to regret their choice. They still admit there is nothing in the world that will give a person true joy.
The desire for stability and the ability to maintain it are always seemingly beyond reach for me. When do I get rewarded here on Earth for my faith?
I have a great distaste for money and an even greater disdain for the ever consistent need of it, but I do need to it. Whether by way of earning it or somehow obtaining it.
I have a wife who in less than a couple of weeks will give birth to our child. Now I wasn't born into welfare, but I did grow up on it. My child will be born into welfare, and it scares me when we are this close to the haunting pontential of the chip implant being implemented. If this happens then anyone who receives government assistance and rejects the chip will be kicked to the curb ...
I have said before that if it were just me I would be likely to find a way to survive, but I fear my wife wouldn't be strong enough. Certainly my child wouldn't be.
I fear the raging streets and the underground communities filled with who knows what kinds of people. I've lived in homeless societies. The police come thru regularly searching for wanted criminals. You don't know who you are sleeping next to at night.
My prayers seek Gods will, but my heart screams out for mercy and begs for financial safety in this breaking economy. Or to remove us from this world to a better one so we have to suffer it no longer.
I've paid for my mistakes. I've endured many kinds of persecution. I've went thru heartbreak after heartbreak, year after year. I've escape death and severe injury by Your hand God on several occasions. Why can I not escape the circumstance of being poor?
I want this power the devil has had over my life to be gone! I want the manipulated situations to stop and the attacking spirits of anger to be vanquished from me.
Lord I want to fall asleep at night in peace and to wake up in the morning without the nightmare scenario dreams as being my only reason for getting out of bed. I no longer want to live day after day dreading and fearing where my family's next meal will come from or whether we'll have a safe place to sleep at night ...
I listen to You when you want me to relay messages of truth to those who will hear it. I know You are listening to me ... but are You relaying the mesages to the Angels? Are they still fighting the demons after all these years to get me my blessing? Jesus could heal people just walking by, with just a thought. Are You thinking about me Lord?
Have I not known Your anguish? Have I not broken thru to enough souls? Have I not broken thru to any? Is that perhaps why I still await my blessing?
If I am to endure the unknown until my time ends, can You not at least allow me some sort of comfort, some sort of control, some sort of stability that I do not have to worry about losing?
I know prayers are answered in ways we do not always expect or consider. I realize that I have failed in that aspect time and again. That opportunities have slipped thru my fingers because I wasn't paying attention or simply because I didn't think myself ready ...
I don't even know if I'm ready now. All I do know is Your word says I should expect great things and that my heart's desires will be fulfilled for doing the work of spreading Your truth.
My heart's truest desires are to minister and to do so with my wife supporting at my side. What we need is breathing room. What we ask of You is provision gotten either by our own hand or in what ever way You deem worthy ... any way other than being under government control in order to eat, to receive medical care ... to live ...
I do not seek popularity or fame. I seek Your face, the love of my wife and the blessings beside ...
The devil isn't stronger, people are just weaker against his seductive wiles. But what of those who are simply stubborn and refuse to deny God in order to finally succeed? What of those who no longer feel they posses any strength to keep to the truth, yet somehow they do.
I have seen people who turn their backs on God. Even if they find success they still live to regret their choice. They still admit there is nothing in the world that will give a person true joy.
The desire for stability and the ability to maintain it are always seemingly beyond reach for me. When do I get rewarded here on Earth for my faith?
I have a great distaste for money and an even greater disdain for the ever consistent need of it, but I do need to it. Whether by way of earning it or somehow obtaining it.
I have a wife who in less than a couple of weeks will give birth to our child. Now I wasn't born into welfare, but I did grow up on it. My child will be born into welfare, and it scares me when we are this close to the haunting pontential of the chip implant being implemented. If this happens then anyone who receives government assistance and rejects the chip will be kicked to the curb ...
I have said before that if it were just me I would be likely to find a way to survive, but I fear my wife wouldn't be strong enough. Certainly my child wouldn't be.
I fear the raging streets and the underground communities filled with who knows what kinds of people. I've lived in homeless societies. The police come thru regularly searching for wanted criminals. You don't know who you are sleeping next to at night.
My prayers seek Gods will, but my heart screams out for mercy and begs for financial safety in this breaking economy. Or to remove us from this world to a better one so we have to suffer it no longer.
I've paid for my mistakes. I've endured many kinds of persecution. I've went thru heartbreak after heartbreak, year after year. I've escape death and severe injury by Your hand God on several occasions. Why can I not escape the circumstance of being poor?
I want this power the devil has had over my life to be gone! I want the manipulated situations to stop and the attacking spirits of anger to be vanquished from me.
Lord I want to fall asleep at night in peace and to wake up in the morning without the nightmare scenario dreams as being my only reason for getting out of bed. I no longer want to live day after day dreading and fearing where my family's next meal will come from or whether we'll have a safe place to sleep at night ...
I listen to You when you want me to relay messages of truth to those who will hear it. I know You are listening to me ... but are You relaying the mesages to the Angels? Are they still fighting the demons after all these years to get me my blessing? Jesus could heal people just walking by, with just a thought. Are You thinking about me Lord?
Have I not known Your anguish? Have I not broken thru to enough souls? Have I not broken thru to any? Is that perhaps why I still await my blessing?
If I am to endure the unknown until my time ends, can You not at least allow me some sort of comfort, some sort of control, some sort of stability that I do not have to worry about losing?
I know prayers are answered in ways we do not always expect or consider. I realize that I have failed in that aspect time and again. That opportunities have slipped thru my fingers because I wasn't paying attention or simply because I didn't think myself ready ...
I don't even know if I'm ready now. All I do know is Your word says I should expect great things and that my heart's desires will be fulfilled for doing the work of spreading Your truth.
My heart's truest desires are to minister and to do so with my wife supporting at my side. What we need is breathing room. What we ask of You is provision gotten either by our own hand or in what ever way You deem worthy ... any way other than being under government control in order to eat, to receive medical care ... to live ...
I do not seek popularity or fame. I seek Your face, the love of my wife and the blessings beside ...